NOW: Me + Jay = Happy relationship Past : 2yrs(me+jay) + going off to college - physical aspect of relationship = me/jay apart Future: Me x Jay = jay jr
But now that we have the math out of the way lol Lately things have been awesome went on hella dates…see each otha alot more than b4 and yea i feel like this isnt a winter or summer break relationship…Met his mom n brother…his grandma wanna meet me soon…scared as hell about that lol the sexxxx has been awesssssssssssssssssommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…….and the fuckn headdddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lawd have mercy lol hes the only nigga that made me black out n squirt AT THE SAME DAMN TIME!!!! lol but anyway i introduced him to some of my friends and they like him so thats a good thing… Idk hes bringn that soft mushy gushy shyt outta me that i dont like lol i was actually fukn affectionate around ppl that has neva happend b4….i can admit he has my lil ass in check tho lol no screw ups for me….welp thats all for now tumblr…see ya when i see ya _
Some ppl juss dont understand certain things, because they aint go threw it themsleves… at this moment i really dont feel like dealing with anybody or anything…
So last nite…i was a t a get together that juss ended horrible….Its safe to say that i played a part in the chaos that went on last nite…i realized that drinking isnt for me n i never shoulda started on my birthday…I sent out apology txt each tailored to that person n i got back some “okays”and “no replies”…I feel like i guess ppl are still mad…and i would be as well….but me apologizing is kinda hard for me to do…so to get the responses i got was alil frustrating….I said something that had nuffn to do with me but who doesnt..i guess it juss wasnt the right time to say it i guess….I listen to all of my friends issues bt not once do ppl ask so hows my life…they ask about either the guy im talkn too or nuffn else at all….thats the reason i sometimes dont talk about my issues at all….like i really juss wanna go home n actually get to talk to my mom bout everything thats goin on without her kirkn or anything…and on top of everything….i had broke up wit my fb like sometime last week but hes the only one tryna talk to me n cheer me up…sometimes idk why i say or do certain things..my semester already startn off horrible…wonderful….but yeaa think ima take a break off of life….